this week I started the ecourse Behind the Scenes with the inspiring duo Kim & Xanthe. day one exercise was to think about: why do I love to blog? why do I like to share? and the answer is obvious to me: to connect! I started blogging in 2004 and I had many blogs since then but this is my first in english and honestly the one where I feel more at home (with a sense of belonging) because you, dear friends, connect.
I didn't have a very easy path (who does! right?), lost husbands and friends and was deeply alone. blogging was a cry for help. but no one would guess it because I only shared happy stuff. it was my way of breathing. I was so sad I couldn't handle my sadness. deep inside I needed feedback and I didn't have it. now I do. I'm learning to speak about myself beyond the fairy tale everyone thought my life was.
so, why do I love to blog? because I'm less lonely. since I had to retired due to health issues that I live with my mother again. I had to give up my home, my dreams, my adulth life to start over again. away from all I knew. I was ill and needed to heal. I'm still healing and blogging and photography gives me a purpose to live. makes me busy. gives me happy moments. and somehow I started dreaming again.