I didn't go to the Etsy meetup. sadly. didn't feel capable of leaving the house alone. my mother was going with me only if I took a shower. I've been gathering pieces of courage since I woke up and I want to take a bath instead. at dusk maybe. I can't figure out what's wrong with me. I used to shower every morning! maybe is because the medication made me fat and I lost interest on my body. I'm disenchanted..